I keep reaching for you when I know I shouldn't: a poem

 

• I keep reaching for you when I know I shouldn't

• I try to release you but each time I try, I couldn't

• So I'm asking you now, for YOU to release ME
  Please just leave me be, it's for the best can't you see?
  
  Love hurts, the ache, is it almost over?
  Of being chosen over, and over,
  You're no good for me and I'm too good for you,
  Watch me as I walk away, I never asked you to choose.
  
  I knew who you'd go for and it wasn't me ever,
  I guess we don't always get our happily ever after
  Fairytales and dreams for childrens past,
  For hearts that won't shatter like glass.
  
  I'm am now grown,
  And finally strong enough to come into my own.
  And it starts with this,
  A strong goodebye and I won't seal it with a kiss.
  
  About poem: allegorical piece about letting go of anything that harms us, even when it's hard to do so. Be it a relationship, family harmful dynamics and systems, or a habit or bad coping skill and so many other things.
  
  I pray this blesses the reader, you're strong than you think, if you're still here after all you've been though, IM proud of you. Amen. God bless you guys.
  
  1 Corinthians 13:11
  King James Version
  11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
  
  Philippians 3:13-14
  King James Version
  13 Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
  
  14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.

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Every Scar has a story

 

“The Scars That Preach"

Every scar tells a story…
Mine whisper of battles I never should’ve survived —
childhood pain, the fog of mental illness, the dark pull of self-harm.

For 20 years, I didn’t believe in God at all.
I was an atheist — angry, logical, numb.
If you’d told me I’d one day talk about Jesus with joy,
I would’ve laughed in your face.

But God wasn’t laughing.
He was waiting.
Watching over a girl who thought she was too broken to fix,
too scarred to save.

Then at 25, He met me in my wreckage —
not with lightning, but with love.
He breathed life into my dry bones
and called me daughter.

Now these scars aren’t shame.
They’re scripture on skin —
proof that resurrection is personal,
that Jesus still reaches into graves and pulls people out.

If you’re reading this and still in the fight —
please don’t give up.
Your story isn’t over.
God is still writing. ✍️

🕊️ Ezekiel 37:1–14 | Isaiah 61:3
#Testimony #Survivor #Faith #MentalHealthAwareness #JesusHeals

theyre not pretty but what they represent IS, they're mine. walking, living testimony. ❤ God saved me from my worst enemy...me and has redeemed my story.

as to the scars on my skin, healed and recovered from sh addiction.

if you or anyone you know struggles, please seek help!

Disclaimer / Content Note
I am fully healed and in recovery. These are old scars — not new injuries. This post is not meant to glorify self-harm in any way, but to normalize healing and living in your own skin without shame.

If you or someone you love is struggling with self-harm or suicidal thoughts, you’re not alone. Please reach out for help:

U.S. & Canada: Call or text 988 to reach the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (24/7, free, confidential).

U.K. & Ireland: Samaritans at 116 123 (free).

Canada (Youth): Kids Help Phone 1-800-668-6868.

International: https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/
(global hotlines).

Healing is possible. You matter. ❤️

17h

7-Day Journaling Bible Study: “Stewardship: All of Me for His Glory”

 

🌿 7-Day Journaling Bible Study: “Stewardship: All of Me for His Glory”

By telle wild rose with R.I.S.E. with Yahweh Ministries

Theme verse:

“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.” — Colossians 3:23 (NIV)

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Day 1 — The Heart of Stewardship: It All Belongs to God

Focus: Recognizing that everything—our time, energy, body, relationships, and resources—belongs to God.
Scripture: Psalm 24:1, Genesis 1:26-28, 1 Corinthians 4:2
Reflection Prompt:

• Where have I been living like the owner instead of the steward?
  
  

• What does surrender look like in my daily routine?
  Prayer Thought: “Lord, remind me that I’m managing Your gifts, not my own possessions.”
  🌼 Gratitude & Growth:
  
  

• One thing I’m thankful for today: ________
  
  

• One way I’ll grow in stewardship today: ________
  
  

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Day 2 — Stewarding Time: The Gift of Breath and Hours

Focus: Time as a sacred trust.
Scripture: Ephesians 5:15-16, Psalm 90:12
Reflection Prompt:

• What drains my time but doesn’t grow my soul?
  
  

• How can I give my time back to God intentionally this week?
  Practical Challenge: Plan one block of time this week solely for rest, prayer, or service.
  🌼 Gratitude & Growth:
  
  

• One moment I’m grateful for today: ________
  
  

• One change I’ll make in how I use time: ________
  
  

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Day 3 — Stewarding the Body: Temple Maintenance

Focus: Caring for the physical self as worship, not vanity.
Scripture: 1 Corinthians 6:19-20, Romans 12:1
Reflection Prompt:

• How do I speak about my body? Do I treat it as sacred space?
  
  

• What habit could I adjust to better honor God with my body?
  Affirmation: “My body is not an enemy; it’s an altar.”
  🌼 Gratitude & Growth:
  
  

• My body allows me to ________
  
  

• Today, I’ll honor God with my body by ________
  
  

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Day 4 — Stewarding Words: The Power of the Tongue

Focus: Using speech and silence as tools of grace.
Scripture: Proverbs 18:21, James 3:9-10, Ephesians 4:29
Reflection Prompt:

• Who needs encouragement or forgiveness from my words today?
  
  

• How might God use my voice to build up rather than break down?
  Creative Idea: Write a blessing or short prayer to speak over someone this week.
  🌼 Gratitude & Growth:
  
  

• Words that blessed me today: ________
  
  

• One way I’ll use my words to bring life: ________
  
  

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Day 5 — Stewarding Relationships: Love as a Sacred Trust

Focus: Treating others as gifts to care for, not projects to fix.
Scripture: John 13:34-35, Philippians 2:3-4
Reflection Prompt:

• Do I handle my relationships with humility and patience?
  
  

• Who has God placed on my heart to reconcile or reconnect with?
  Prayer Thought: “Teach me to love well, not just loud.”
  🌼 Gratitude & Growth:
  
  

• A person I’m grateful for today: ________
  
  

• A way I’ll show love more intentionally: ________
  
  

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Day 6 — Stewarding Gifts and Talents: Purpose on Assignment

Focus: Using spiritual gifts, creativity, and skills faithfully.
Scripture: Matthew 25:14-30, 1 Peter 4:10-11
Reflection Prompt:

• What has God put in my hands that I’ve been afraid to use?
  
  

• How can I start using my gifts to serve rather than hide?
  Activation: Do one thing today that activates your calling—create, mentor, write, serve.
  🌼 Gratitude & Growth:
  
  

• A gift I thank God for: ________
  
  

• A way I’ll use it for His glory today: ________
  
  

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Day 7 — Stewarding Rest and Renewal: Trusting God Enough to Pause

Focus: Sabbath as stewardship of the soul.
Scripture: Genesis 2:2-3, Matthew 11:28-30
Reflection Prompt:

• Where am I overworking out of fear instead of faith?
  
  

• What restores me spiritually, emotionally, and physically?
  Closing Prayer:
  “Lord, teach me to steward my whole life—my work, my words, my body, my rest—for Your glory and my good.”
  🌼 Gratitude & Growth:
  
  

• Something I’m grateful for in this week of study: ________
  
  

• A way I’ll continue to rest and trust God: ________
  
  

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✨ Weekly Stewardship Check-In

Take this moment to pause, review, and realign.

1. Heart Check:

• Which area of stewardship felt most alive this week?
  
  

• Which one still needs surrender?
  
  

2. Practical Reflection:

• How did I use my time, energy, and resources?
  
  

• Did I make space for rest and gratitude?
  
  

3. Fruit Check:

• What growth did I notice in myself?
  
  

• What fruit can I see in how I treated others?
  
  

4. Prayer for Alignment:
“Father, make me a faithful steward of every breath You lend me.
Let my time, body, words, and work sing one song—‘All of me belongs to You.’ Amen.”