WHen we were young new series: exploration of childhood book one

 title: when we were young

author: Telle wild rose

publisher: R.I.S.E. with yahweh ministries 

price: free download: 

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Summary: an exploration or reflection on childhood from the memories of one that has grown up and offers introspection and observation of family systems. 

Brighter days series: book 2: Brighter days, Light

Publish date: 10/30/25 

Publisher: R.I.S.E. with yahweh ministries

location: wichita, ks 

Price: FREE 

Link: 

 https://drive.google.com/file/d/1QKqgbJ0rrh9WpEExo1NUNAoj_Yk0iqDz/view?usp=drive_link

a more lighthearted feel but no less impactful, Brighter days: light, challenges to those called to answer in yes and amen to what God has created them to do. traveling through the lens of reflections of the order of creation, telle wild rose, invites you to walk into your purpose and God given gifts to bring glory to His name and healing to many. shine your light bright and bring others to Him, be ye fishers of men and souls, rather than fish anymore. and having done all, stand, be still and rest in the finished work. 

Grit and grace series work: nobody loves me (loveless part 2)

No one loves me, oh this ache,

They just care how I perform for them, 

Demand my presence for the shows sake,

But they never truly choose me over him or the selves of them.

Why does no one want me? 

What wrong have I committed, but deeply feel, 

The mask is all they want to see,

No one saved me, and theyre choosing him still

Smile in my face,

Yet im the punchline,

The fool of the cruel jokes they make in their secret place, 

I swear they do this all the time, im nobodies dime. 

Should I stay or should i go?

Searching for a home that feels so far away,

Family isnt family just because blood says so,

Heaven knows my name, no matter what they say. 

My soul cries out 

My heart knows the truth,

Actions speak louder than words said in a shout,

Ive been, being abandoned since my youth. 

I see the joy, the pictures, the love shown to my enemy,

While my line stays silent, no ring,

Im left behind feeling empty ,

Oh death how great is your sting! 

Over and again, same game,

Same thoughtlessness

Im left with only shame,

I know im nothing, and everything that is less. 

What is it to be wanted vs chosen over?

What is it to be chosen over discarded?

Should have kept my cover,

Opening my mouth and spilling the secret started all this. 

A rift too wide to mend,

I try to be the bigger person and get burned,

Over the line, shes around the bend,

No one comes to my aid, my affections never returned. 

Sorrow of mind, blind lead the blind,

Sadness of heart, broken dreams,

Heaviness of spirit, I know the kind,

The all consuming type, weariness is beyond bone deep, the bleeding is as it seems. 

Oh this ache, 

Heartbreak and honeyed lies, 

I thought I was dreaming but this whole time, I've been awake,

Silence the shatter and muffle the cries. 

Of the never ending ache.. 

Scripture Reflections:

"No one loves me, oh this ache..."

Jeremiah 31:3

“I have loved you with an everlasting love;

therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.”

 "They just care how I perform..."

 1 Samuel 16:7

“The Lord does not look at the things people look at.

People look at the outward appearance,

but the Lord looks at the heart.”

 "Why does no one want me?"

Psalm 27:10

“Though my father and mother forsake me,

the Lord will receive me.”

 "Smile in my face, yet I'm the punchline..."

 Isaiah 53:3

“He was despised and rejected by mankind,

a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.”

Hebrews 4:15

“For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses...”

"Searching for a home that feels far away..."

John 14:2-3

“In my Father’s house are many rooms... I am going there to prepare a place for you.”

"My soul cries out…”

Psalm 34:17-18

“The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them;

he delivers them from all their troubles.

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted

and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

"Im left behind feeling empty..."

Psalm 147:3

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.”

"What is it to be wanted vs chosen?"

Ephesians 1:4-5

“He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world...

In love He predestined us for adoption...”

 "I try to be the bigger person and get burned..."

Romans 12:19

“Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath…”

"Sorrow of mind... weariness beyond bone-deep..."

Matthew 11:28-30

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest... for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”

"I thought I was dreaming, but I’ve been awake..."

Psalm 126:5-6

“Those who sow in tears

will reap with songs of joy.

Those who go out weeping,

carrying seed to sow,

will return with songs of joy,

carrying sheaves with them.”

Encouragement: God is always present in the ache, the midnight tears, he neither slumber nor sleeps but always working out a way for you. Cry out to Him. He hears you.

🌹 The Husband Files: Journal + Poetry Prompts Companion

 

🌹 The Husband Files: Journal + Poetry Prompts Companion

The Husband Files: Rise with yahweh: The Husband Files by Telle WIld Rose - Now available

1. “The Showdown, Love Come Down”

Theme: Covenant love, spiritual alignment before physical union.
Journal Prompts:

• What does holy union mean to you personally?

• How can you prepare your heart for a relationship centered on God first?

• Write about a time when you felt “seen” in both your spirit and your humanity.
  Poetry Prompts:

• Write a poem beginning with “Heaven approved, with God’s stamp sealed…”

• Describe love as a battlefield that ends in peace, not war.

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2. “The Sacred Vow”

Theme: God as first love and ultimate bridegroom.
Journal Prompts:

• How have you mistaken your desire for a person for a deeper desire for God?

• What would it look like for you to make a “sacred vow” to God in your own words?

• Where have you seen His faithfulness when your plans didn’t match your prayers?
  Poetry Prompts:

• Write your own love letter to God as your “first husband.”

• Begin with “I said I was ready for love, but love already found me…”

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3. “Keep Your Eyes on Me and Woman Me”

Theme: Confidence, divine femininity, and holy desire.
Journal Prompts:

• What parts of your womanhood or self-expression have you been told to hide?

• How do you reconcile strength and softness in yourself?

• Reflect on a time when you felt powerful, seen, and unashamed.
  Poetry Prompts:

• Write from your body’s perspective, speaking to your soul.

• Begin a poem with “He can look beyond just what the eyes can see…”

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4. “She’s More Than a Body”

Theme: Identity, reverence, and body positivity.
Journal Prompts:

• What lies have you believed about your body? Replace them with God’s truths.

• Describe how your body has carried you through pain and praise.

• In what ways can you honor your physical form as holy and good?
  Poetry Prompts:

• Write a praise poem that begins, “Watch me walk, watch me strut…”

• Personify your body as a temple that speaks back to you.

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5. “Can’t Mess with Queen Bee”

Theme: Empowerment, restoration, joy in redemption.
Journal Prompts:

• Where have you reclaimed power or joy after loss or shame?

• What does being “the blueprint, not the copy” mean to you?

• How do you balance humility and confidence in your calling?
  Poetry Prompts:

• Begin with “There’s only room for one queen bee…”

• Write about a woman rising from ashes, honey dripping from her scars.

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6. “Song of Songs: A Reprisal”

Theme: Sacred intimacy, covenant desire.
Journal Prompts:

• What does “reverent desire” mean to you in contrast to worldly desire?

• How can intimacy reflect worship and not idolatry?

• Describe a love that brings you closer to God instead of farther away.
  Poetry Prompts:

• Write a duet-style poem between spirit and flesh.

• Begin with “Not for shame but for reverence…”

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7. “In the Eyes of My King, My Husband, My Covering”

Theme: Being fully seen and loved without condition.
Journal Prompts:

• How have you learned to accept being “too much” or “not enough”?

• What does it feel like to be truly covered, not controlled?

• Write about someone who sees you the way God does.
  Poetry Prompts:

• Begin with “In his eyes, I’m everything he prayed for.”

• Write a love poem that ends in worship, not desire.

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8. “I Am Not Ashamed of the Garden”

Theme: Healing, redemption, celebration of scars and sacred beauty.
Journal Prompts:

• What are your “scars that summon”—the places that drew God or love closer?

• How can you turn your pain into a testimony of beauty?

• What does it mean to you to be both desired and holy?
  Poetry Prompts:

• Begin with “I am not ashamed…”

• Write a poem in the voice of your scars, each telling a truth about redemption.

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💌 Reflection Section: “From My Pen to Yours”

Journal Prompts:

• What truth from this collection struck your heart most deeply?

• How does this redefine “holy desire” for you?

• Write your own closing note: what has God been teaching you through love and longing?
  Poetry Prompts:

• Begin with “I didn’t write this to impress…”

• Write a poem of release — what are you freeing yourself from?

I keep reaching for you when I know I shouldn't: a poem

 

• I keep reaching for you when I know I shouldn't

• I try to release you but each time I try, I couldn't

• So I'm asking you now, for YOU to release ME
  Please just leave me be, it's for the best can't you see?
  
  Love hurts, the ache, is it almost over?
  Of being chosen over, and over,
  You're no good for me and I'm too good for you,
  Watch me as I walk away, I never asked you to choose.
  
  I knew who you'd go for and it wasn't me ever,
  I guess we don't always get our happily ever after
  Fairytales and dreams for childrens past,
  For hearts that won't shatter like glass.
  
  I'm am now grown,
  And finally strong enough to come into my own.
  And it starts with this,
  A strong goodebye and I won't seal it with a kiss.
  
  About poem: allegorical piece about letting go of anything that harms us, even when it's hard to do so. Be it a relationship, family harmful dynamics and systems, or a habit or bad coping skill and so many other things.
  
  I pray this blesses the reader, you're strong than you think, if you're still here after all you've been though, IM proud of you. Amen. God bless you guys.
  
  1 Corinthians 13:11
  King James Version
  11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
  
  Philippians 3:13-14
  King James Version
  13 Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
  
  14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.

• 6w

All the flowers are dead

All the Flowers are dead by Telle Wild Rose (shauntell rohner)

A small bud tries to blossom into something new

But a man stomps down and crushes the dream

Lower than the dirt underneath his boot, She is you

She lets out a fearful scream

Why does it have to be this way?

The season is warming up welcoming dying hope before it even starts,

When will she finally be ok?

When she passed she left a trail of broken hearts

Water, earth, and light, are needed to flourish

Deprived of all, now theres rot underneath the root,

The sun has fallen, the stars weep, and she wishes there was more than this

Looking around the bed of soil, she realizes sadly something is afoot,

A facade to fool the masses, surely

looking with a careful eye, theres beauty on the outside, yellows, blues and red

But the temperate of the air is somber and winter has come far too early,

Because as she looks deeper she discovers, all the flowers are dead.

Reflection: what areas of your life are dead or rotten? what in your life needs to be revived?

scripture meditation: Ezekiel 37:1-14

King James Version

37 The hand of the Lord was upon me, and carried me out in the spirit of the Lord, and set me down in the midst of the valley which was full of bones,

2 And caused me to pass by them round about: and, behold, there were very many in the open valley; and, lo, they were very dry.

3 And he said unto me, Son of man, can these bones live? And I answered, O Lord God, thou knowest.

4 Again he said unto me, Prophesy upon these bones, and say unto them, O ye dry bones, hear the word of the Lord.

5 Thus saith the Lord God unto these bones; Behold, I will cause breath to enter into you, and ye shall live:

6 And I will lay sinews upon you, and will bring up flesh upon you, and cover you with skin, and put breath in you, and ye shall live; and ye shall know that I am the Lord.

7 So I prophesied as I was commanded: and as I prophesied, there was a noise, and behold a shaking, and the bones came together, bone to his bone.

8 And when I beheld, lo, the sinews and the flesh came up upon them, and the skin covered them above: but there was no breath in them.

9 Then said he unto me, Prophesy unto the wind, prophesy, son of man, and say to the wind, Thus saith the Lord God; Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe upon these slain, that they may live.

10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and the breath came into them, and they lived, and stood up upon their feet, an exceeding great army.

11 Then he said unto me, Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel: behold, they say, Our bones are dried, and our hope is lost: we are cut off for our parts.

12 Therefore prophesy and say unto them, Thus saith the Lord God; Behold, O my people, I will open your graves, and cause you to come up out of your graves, and bring you into the land of Israel.

13 And ye shall know that I am the Lord, when I have opened your graves, O my people, and brought you up out of your graves,

14 And shall put my spirit in you, and ye shall live, and I shall place you in your own land: then shall ye know that I the Lord have spoken it, and performed it, saith the Lord.

Encouragement: the Lord will give you beauty for ashes, for He is the God of the living, not the dead. He came to give you life more abundantly whereas the thief came only to steal, kill and destroy. but we are more than conquerers in Him. - Telle Wild Rose

a long, dark Haiku and Jesus who met me there

Theme song: Falling inside the black by skillet 

A Really Rather Long Dark Haiku by telle wild rose from "i wrote the wound, it was the balm" 

Don't say you love me

 If you're here to appeal your case

 Do not, I've been gone

Death, dark and devils

 Same demons newer levels

 Despair consumes me

A blade, a cut, red

 Spread too thin deep down within

 Scared of my shadow

Lies from loving lips

 Knife in back from my own friend

 A sister falls down

In the valley

 That's where you'll find me hiding

 Waiting for daylight

Sun shines yet I hide

 My shame consumes me always

 The lonely is known

Familiar spirits

 Whispers in the ear, danger

 Scream to shout to tears

Sin is a monster

 Beast underneath the bedding

 Making play of life

Child naivety

 Symbols, and riddles spoken

 Never perceive it

Confusion surrounds

 Yet Everything is nothing

 Here's a song for you

We've reached an end now

 Draw your weapon enemy

 Look in the mirror

📖 Scripture Reflections:

Psalm 34:18 (NIV)

 “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

John 11:43–44 (NIV)

 “Jesus called in a loud voice, ‘Lazarus, come out!’ … ‘Take off the grave clothes and let him go.’”

2 Corinthians 4:6 (ESV)

 “For God… has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.”

Encouragement: if you feel your toonfar gone, too crazy, too dark. Stop. God isnt afraid of your darkness. He can and will reach into the depths of you and pull you out. Trust in Him.