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My name is shauntell rohner, i go by telle wild rose in my writing (poet), i am a survivor of both childhood sexual abuse and incest.
it started at age 3, by an older male cousin. i dont recall exactly how it started but i know he approached me under the guise of it being ''a game'' that only me and him couldl play. he did everythign imaginable too terrible to repeat, and he would go on to abuse me till i was age 14. it only ended because i finally spoke up and told someone about the ongoing abuse i was going through.
unfortunately the justice system turned me away and i never recieved legal justice for what was done to this day.
at age 11 i also started self harming to dealw ith the pain of the abuse, as the saying goes, secrets make you sick, and indded it did, because at 14 i was diagnosed with (c)PTSD, major depression, anxiety. and fast forward to older ages at 20 diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. then later once agin, depressive psychosis where i would hear and see things others could not. ive been in and out of inpatient, er visits for self-harm, struggled with being suicidal and been in therapy off n on since age 14.
being abused wrecked hovac on my psyche, my mental health was turned to ashes. but something profound happened also at age 25. i met the living God. Jesus Christ, came into my heart and began to heal those broken places. im 32 now and i can honestly say he's given and still giving me beauty for ashes. im not at the finish line yet, but im striving to get there day by day. i may not have gotten the type of justice i wanted but i know my Redeemer lives, and He remembers and has not forgotten and is a Just God. i leave it all in His hands. Hallelujah.
i live my life now being a voice in the wilderness for those that do not have their own through the creative outlet of poetry.
please, DONT wait, tell somebody, it will bring healing to you and many others that need to hear your story.
#tellsomebody #survivor
