demon in me poem

Demon in me by telle wild rose from "I wrote the wound, it was the balm" 

Don't worry about the darkness you see,

 That's just the demon in me

 Overtaking, consuming

 Leaves me running

 Running into the midst of nowhere

 A shadow, I give a second look, no one there

 Tricks of the mind

 And I fear I'm running out of time

 Why can't I win?

 I don't know where evil begins and I end

 Monsters chasing me

 Memories won't let me be

 Broken brain

 To lose is gain

 Found just to be lost

 She should have counted the cost.

 Deception

 The moment of her conception

 Repurpose the dying dream

 Fear always, for Nothing is as it seems.

 Don't worry about the darkness you see,

 That's just the demon in me...

📖 Scripture Reflections:

Psalm 139:11–12 (NIV)

 “If I say, ‘Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,’ even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.”

Isaiah 43:1 (ESV)

 “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine.”

Romans 8:38–39 (NLT)

 “Nothing can ever separate us from God’s love… not even the powers of hell.”

Encouragement: no voice is louder than God's. Jesus steps into the shadows of you and shines his healing light. Step forth. 

a long, dark Haiku and Jesus who met me there

Theme song: Falling inside the black by skillet 

A Really Rather Long Dark Haiku by telle wild rose from "i wrote the wound, it was the balm" 

Don't say you love me

 If you're here to appeal your case

 Do not, I've been gone

Death, dark and devils

 Same demons newer levels

 Despair consumes me

A blade, a cut, red

 Spread too thin deep down within

 Scared of my shadow

Lies from loving lips

 Knife in back from my own friend

 A sister falls down

In the valley

 That's where you'll find me hiding

 Waiting for daylight

Sun shines yet I hide

 My shame consumes me always

 The lonely is known

Familiar spirits

 Whispers in the ear, danger

 Scream to shout to tears

Sin is a monster

 Beast underneath the bedding

 Making play of life

Child naivety

 Symbols, and riddles spoken

 Never perceive it

Confusion surrounds

 Yet Everything is nothing

 Here's a song for you

We've reached an end now

 Draw your weapon enemy

 Look in the mirror

📖 Scripture Reflections:

Psalm 34:18 (NIV)

 “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

John 11:43–44 (NIV)

 “Jesus called in a loud voice, ‘Lazarus, come out!’ … ‘Take off the grave clothes and let him go.’”

2 Corinthians 4:6 (ESV)

 “For God… has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.”

Encouragement: if you feel your toonfar gone, too crazy, too dark. Stop. God isnt afraid of your darkness. He can and will reach into the depths of you and pull you out. Trust in Him.

God's not done with you hope in the breaking, beauty in the healing

Theme sing: tauren wells, God's not done with you"

I crave the blade from " I wrote the wound, it was the balm" 

Heaven help me,

 for I crave the blade

Madam Merkur

 my lovely lady friend

blade to skin

 to touch

 to cut

 to bleed

red rivers of tears

 falling

 slowly, flowing downwards

Heaven help me,

 I crave the blade.

the pain, the anguish

 cannot be contained

and oh how I fear

 I fear great a many things

 but this desire of mine

oh Heaven help me

 send the angels down to stop me

 for I crave the blade.

📖 Scripture Reflections:

Isaiah 1:18 (NIV)

 “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow…”

Hebrews 4:15–16 (ESV)

 “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize… Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace…”

Psalm 18:16 (NIV)

 “He reached down from on high and took hold of me; He drew me out of deep waters.”

2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV)

 “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”

Encouragement: if you are struggling with mental illness, know this, you are not alone. Heaven knows your name, God sees your pain, and He meets you there.

Big mama see, just be: stand alone poem by Telle Wild Rose

 Date published: 7/24/2025 

Author: Telle Wild Rose 

Title: Big mama see, just be 

Format: pdf google drive

price: free

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Big mama see, just be, a poem by telle wild rose 

Homemade lemonade, tea spillin’

Kitchen cookin’, secrets hide 

Rugs with shadows,bones hidden

Take a walk with me and come along for the ride.

Step inside to the fairytale, 

Of monsters in the form of ailing minds, 

Mental illness they call it, brain short circuit fail 

Family reunions, thinly veiled insults kinds. 

Word through the grapevines is this,

Big mama see, do nothin’ ,she; just be. 

Inviting abusers to the table, what is this?

Everyone falls in line, monkey do what monkey see. 

Big mama isnt a person but a system,

Of dysfunction, and no accountability.

If anyone breaks out, they have no longer part with them

The black sheep, the scape goat, no one wants to be he. 

Mind shatters under pressure,

Fragmented, and broken silence, what sthe aim?

Trust faded, heart jaded and no more joyful pleasure of family get together,

Outcast, depression, anxiety, and trauma responses are all that remain. 

Big mama see,

Be quiet.

Be compliant, just be

Be moldable, and always with brokenness, hide it. 

To the system of Big mama, blackness before safety,

I say only this, 

Youre course has run the race, the end is near quickly,

And freedom exposes all in song, in dance, in words, just like this.

Grit and grace series introduces first work: I wrote the wound, it was the balm, poem collection, real, raw, gritty and redemptive, AVAILIBLE NOW

 Title: I wrote the wound, it was the balm 

Author: Telle WIld Rose 

Release date: July 19, 2025 

All rights reserved. please do use for personal, group or ministry uses, but do NOT change or alter anything about the book. 

Format: PDF

Price: FREE

AVAILABLE NOW!!! Download

Photo information: person picture of telle wild rose's arm of old healed scars. removed background in background remover program, added text via canva

⚠ Caution!!! ⚠

📘 How to Use This Book

I Wrote the Wound, It was the Balm isn’t meant to be read all at once.

It’s a conversation. A mirror. A safe place.
And like healing, it moves at your own pace.

Here are a few gentle ways to walk through these pages:

• Start with the poem that speaks to your current state.
  There’s no need to go in order. Let your soul guide you.
  
  

• Read mindfully—see not just the wound but the hidden underlineing the balm.
  Pause in between. Breathe. Let the Scriptures response sink in slowly.
  
  

• Use the journal prompts throughout or at the end to start your own conversations with God.
  
  

• Don’t rush your healing.
  This book is here for the days when you don’t have words, the nights when you’re unraveling, and the mornings when the sun rises again… even just for a moment.
  
  

You can come back to it as many times as you need.
Each time, you’ll find something different waiting for you.
And each time, God will still be speaking.

⚠️ Author's Note & Content Warning

Dear Reader,

This collection is raw. It is real. It is mine.

Inside these pages, you will find vulnerable expressions of mental illness, trauma, self-harm, suicidal ideation, spiritual grief, and emotional pain. Some poems may be unsettling or heavy—because they were written in the dark before I found my way back to the light.

This book is not a glorification of suffering.
It is not a romanticizing of pain.
It is a record—a testimony—of survival,
and of the whispers of God calling me home.

If you are sensitive to topics around self-harm, depression, or emotional abuse, please proceed with care.
Take breaks.
Skip sections.
Come back when you’re ready.
You don’t owe the book more than you have to give.

If you are currently struggling, please know: you are not alone.
You are deeply loved, and there is always help, even when it feels unreachable.

I share these pages not as a perfect person,
but as a witness to grace in the middle of a storm.

Let this book be what it needs to be for you.
And let the final note always be this:

You’re still here.
And that is holy.

With tenderness,
Telle Wild Rose

Becoming she (now available) published (grit, guts,, grace and grind book 2)

 

Photo information: all created in paint program and gimp, with some canva for text. all belongs to telle wild rose

 Title: Becoming She by Telle Wild Rose — Now Available

Posted on: July 16, 2025
Author: Telle Wild Rose

Published on: July 16, 2025
Location: Wichita, Kansas, USA
Edition: First
Format: Digital (PDF)
Distribution: Free access via Google Drive
Read it here: Download

This work is now officially published for public enjoyment and distribution via this link. All rights reserved. Please do not alter or redistribute without permission.

The Husband Files by Telle WIld Rose - Now available (devine romance series book 1)

 Title: The Husband Files by Telle Wild Rose — Now Available

Posted on: July 16, 2025
Author: Telle Wild Rose

Published on: July 16, 2025
Location: Wichita, Kansas, USA
Edition: First
Format: Digital (PDF)
Distribution and Price: Free access via Google Drive 
Read it here: Download        Journal prompts: download

This work is now officially published for public enjoyment and distribution via this link. All rights reserved. Please do not alter or redistribute without permission.

                                                  The ache, and wanting and the God that meets her there, the husband files, is about lamenting your heart out to God and Him coming down to minister to you in your waiting season.