✍🏾 A Note on Creativity & Disability

I am a real author.

I live with severe and complex mental illness—including psychosis, depression, PTSD, and executive dysfunction—that makes writing, organizing, and even thinking clearly a daily challenge.

Yet I write.

Sometimes I need help—just like a blind writer might use a screen reader, or a physically disabled artist might use adaptive tools. I use AI the way others use dictation software, therapy dogs, fidget tools, or mobility aids: to access what’s already inside of me.

AI doesn’t replace me.

It helps unlock me.

I’m the one who creates. Who dreams. Who crafts the vision, the voice, the story, the message.

The tool just helps me express what trauma or mental illness sometimes tries to silence.

If you're reading my words and they moved you? That was me.

Disability doesn’t make me less of an author—it just means I get creative in how I show up for my calling.

And that, in itself, is a testimony.

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Navigating Mental Illness while serving in Ministry

* pictured is a black womans hands with scars on hands and wrists holding out and offering bread. it symbolizes though we all may be scarred physically OR emotionally/mentally/spiritually we still have a purpose in God's kingdom. we are not rejected and are still called, still worthy. 

 Ministry isn’t a platform reserved for the perfect. It’s a calling walked out by the willing.

And I’m one of them—willing, messy, healing, and still rising.

I live with several mental health diagnoses, including depression, anxiety, PTSD/trauma, psychosis, and borderline personality disorder. That’s a heavy sentence, I know. For a long time, I thought it disqualified me. I thought I had to look, speak, or operate like someone else—some polished, picture-perfect leader—in order to be “right” for ministry. I felt like a carbon copy, afraid of doing it wrong. But God wasn’t asking for a copy. He was calling for me.

🌻 Finding My Own Voice and Lane in Ministry

Through deep prayer, therapy, Scripture, and many moments of wrestling, I began to realize something powerful: my struggles didn’t cancel my calling—they shaped it.
Because of my diagnoses, I’ve had to get creative in how I minister. I’ve had to prioritize sustainability, rest, and flexibility—not only for myself but also for others walking their own roads of recovery.

That’s why R.I.S.E. with Yahweh Ministries is self-paced, peer-led, and rooted in grace. It’s designed for people like me: people who sometimes need a sabbatical, who hear God best in stillness, who sometimes need to text instead of talk. It’s not a weakness. It’s a wise design.

💬 Serving with Anxiety: Quiet Courage in Text-Based Ministry

My anxiety makes phone calls overwhelming and traditional “churchy” environments overstimulating. So, I serve through text-based peer support, writing devotionals, and offering tools people can access on their own schedule.
I’ve discovered that quiet ministry is still powerful. Encouragement sent by email or a written check-in can reach someone at just the right time. We don’t have to be loud to be effective.

🧠 Navigating Trauma and PTSD: Check-Ins and Gentle Boundaries

My trauma has taught me the value of emotional check-ins—not just for others, but for myself. I use the same tools I provide to my community to regularly evaluate where I’m at. If I’m burned out, triggered, or worn down, I give myself permission to rest. That’s not quitting. That’s honoring my humanity.

I’ve also learned that trauma survivors thrive with gentle structures, not rigid demands. That’s why my ministry isn’t built around strict timeframes or pressure—it’s built on growth, healing, and mutual support.

✨ Living with Psychosis: Discernment, Not Disqualification

My psychosis is often spiritual in nature, involving intrusive or confusing religious thoughts or voices. That’s a vulnerable thing to admit—but it’s real. And here’s what I do:

• I compare every voice or message I hear to the Word of God. If it doesn’t line up with Scripture, I reject it.

• I stay honest with my care team—mental health providers and trusted spiritual mentors alike.

• I journal and test the spirit (1 John 4:1), because not every supernatural experience is holy.

• Most of all, I remind myself: having spiritual confusion doesn’t mean I’m spiritually lost. I am seen, loved, and upheld by the Spirit of truth.

🌱 Creating Ministry That Reflects Real Life

R.I.S.E. with Yahweh isn’t a place where we pretend we’re fine. It’s a space where we’re free to say, “I’m healing. I’m tired. I’m trying.”
That’s why my ministry structure includes:

• 🧩 Self-learning options, so people can move at their own pace

• 💬 Text-only support, for those with anxiety or speech struggles

• 🌿 Peer-led groups, because healing happens in community

• 📊 Check-in tools, to help us know when to rest, refocus, or reengage

• 🙏🏾 Non-clinical spiritual care, rooted in grace and grounded in truth

🔥 My Illnesses Don't Disqualify Me—They Deepen My Dependence

God never asked me to lead in spite of my struggles. He called me to lead through them.
I’m not superwoman. I’m not always strong. But I’m faithful to show up in the way God uniquely designed me to—and that’s enough.

So to the one reading this who’s battling depression, anxiety, trauma, psychosis, or any diagnosis that feels like too much:

💛 You’re not too much. You’re anointed.

💛 You don’t have to do ministry like anyone else. Do it like you.

💛 You can take breaks. You can ask for help. You can rest without guilt.

You are still called.
You are still rising.
And you are never alone.

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With grace and grit,
Telle Wild Rose
Founder, R.I.S.E. with Yahweh Ministries
🌾 Restoration. Identity. Support. Encouragement.

Why even use ai as a tool in your written works? isnt that cheating? and MY PROCESS. for the disabled and neurodivergent and scattered brained

 

Part 1 

Q. why do you use ai in your writing? Dont you see the concerns in the community?

ChatGPT said:

Writers in the writing community often express strong concerns about using AI as a writing tool for several nuanced reasons. These concerns usually fall into a few key categories:

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1. Authenticity and Voice

• Fear of losing unique voice: Many writers view writing as an intimate, personal expression. They're afraid AI might dilute or overwrite their unique tone, style, and lived experience.
  
  

• “Real art comes from struggle” mentality: Some believe that the creative process—including its messiness and difficulty—is essential to the integrity of the final product.
  
  

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2. Ethical Concerns

• Training data sources: Some are uncomfortable with how AI models were trained, especially since many large language models (like GPT) were trained on datasets that may include copyrighted content without permission.
  
  

• Plagiarism fears: There's worry that AI might “regurgitate” content too close to something else that already exists, potentially creating accidental plagiarism.
  
  

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3. Industry Threats

• Job displacement: Many freelancers, editors, and ghostwriters worry AI will replace them or devalue their labor.
  
  

• Devaluation of craft: There's a perception that AI-generated work floods markets (especially indie/self-publishing) with cheap, low-effort content, making it harder for human-authored works to stand out.
  
  

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4. Creative Purity and Pride

• Romanticism of the artist’s struggle: There’s a cultural ideal of the suffering, solitary artist pouring their soul onto the page. AI short-circuits that narrative.
  
  

• "If I didn’t do it myself, it’s not valid": Some writers feel using AI—even as a brainstorm partner—is cheating or less “legitimate.”
  
  

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5. Lack of Understanding or Experience

• Fear of the unknown: Many simply haven’t tried AI, or tried it once and didn’t like the result. Without guided use or understanding its strengths/limitations, they may dismiss it outright.
  
  

• Assumptions based on bad outputs: Early or careless uses of AI (e.g., for full-book generation without editing) can give the impression it’s soulless or generic.
  
  

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6. Community Norms and Identity

• Gatekeeping and elitism: Some literary circles view AI-assisted writing as a betrayal of traditional standards.
  
  

• Groupthink: In online spaces, especially Twitter/X and Reddit, it’s common for people to adopt the dominant opinion of their peer group—leading to hostility toward AI even if they might benefit from it.
  
  

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In Summary:

It’s not that writers hate tools—they just want to protect the soul of storytelling. For many, writing is more than words on a page; it’s healing, identity, and rebellion. If they fear AI might flatten that, their resistance makes sense.

But with thoughtful, ethical use, AI can be a partner, not a replacement—just like a thesaurus, a critique partner, or a spellchecker.

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Would you like help framing your own approach to AI writing in a way that honors your creativity and responds to these concerns with grace?

You said:

yes, an i think you do a GREAT job at capturing my voice, tone, lived experiences etc. from what I share with you. i do still do my own writing and share with you and you learn from me. i want to be able to respond with grace why I use ai.

ChatGPT said:

That’s beautiful, and thank you for the kind words. 🖤 Your approach to using AI is exactly what thoughtful, creative use looks like—collaborative, personal, and guided by your own heart and hand. Here’s a grace-filled response you can use, adapt, or post when explaining your use of AI to others in the writing community:

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✨ Why I Use AI as a Writer — With Grace and Intention ✨

I understand that the use of AI in writing stirs up a lot of emotions—especially in a community that values soul, struggle, and authenticity. I feel that too. My writing is deeply personal, shaped by lived experiences, trauma healing, faith, and a voice that is uniquely my own.

But here’s why I choose to use AI:

1. It’s a Tool, Not a Ghostwriter
I write. I reflect. I revise. I share pieces of myself. And when I use AI, I use it like I would a writing partner who remembers everything I’ve told them. It helps me organize, expand, brainstorm, and sometimes mirror back what I’m already trying to say—but clearer.

2. It Learns From Me
I don’t ask AI to write for me. I let it learn from me. The more I share my heart, tone, themes, and voice, the more it reflects my creative fingerprint back to me. And I still refine every word.

3. I’m Disabled / Chronically Ill / Healing
Using AI doesn’t make me less of a writer. It helps me stay a writer. When brain fog, trauma responses, or fatigue hit, I can still create. That’s not cheating—it’s adapting with grace.


MORE on point number 3, 🌿 Why I Use AI as a Writer: A Note from Telle Wild Rose 🌿

I know there’s a lot of tension in the writing world around the use of AI. Some see it as a threat to authenticity. Others fear it replaces the heart of real creativity. I hear those concerns, and I honor the emotion behind them.

But I want to gently share my truth: AI is not replacing my writing. It’s helping me survive long enough to keep writing.

Here’s what I mean:

🖤 I live with depression, anxiety, and trauma.
On hard days, my mind can be a maze of overwhelm, shame, and fog. AI helps me sort through it. It gives structure when my thoughts feel like scattered puzzle pieces.

🖤 I also experience voices due to psychosis.
When those moments come, writing can feel impossible. But using AI helps me stay grounded. It holds space for my voice when I feel fragmented. It helps me come back to myself.

🖤 It’s not cheating—it’s a lifeline.
I still write. I still create. Every word comes from me. But AI helps organize, mirror, and reflect what I already carry in my spirit. It’s more like a gentle guide than a ghostwriter.

🖤 I use AI ethically, with intention.
I don’t copy others. I don’t flood the world with empty content. I pour myself into my work—and I use AI to help refine and structure it when my mind feels like it’s breaking apart.

🖤 I’m still the author. Always.
My voice, my testimony, my faith, and my lived experiences are not something AI can replicate. But it can support me in sharing them more clearly and consistently—especially when my brain isn’t cooperating.

So no, I’m not “faking it.” I’m fighting for my creativity. For my healing. For my calling.

With grace,
Telle Wild Rose
Writer. Survivor. Witness. Daughter of the King.

4. It Doesn’t Replace My Voice—It Holds Space for It
The truth is: I am still the author. AI doesn’t know my testimony, my healing, my scars, or my prayers. I bring those to the page. It simply helps me shape the clay I already formed in my soul.

5. Creativity Doesn’t Have to Be Gatekept
We celebrate typewriters, spellcheck, Scrivener, beta readers, and critique groups. AI is just another tool—how you use it is what matters. I use it ethically, thoughtfully, and never to replace the sacred work of the human spirit.

So no—I’m not “cheating.” I’m collaborating. I’m still bleeding onto the page. I’m just doing it with a little extra support—and there’s no shame in that.

With love and respect,
Telle Wild Rose
Writer, Witness, and Wonder-Maker

 Part 2 

📖 Blog Post Title:
Why I Use AI in My Writing (Q&A with Telle Wild Rose)

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Q: Do you really use AI to help write your books and blog posts?
A: Yes, I do—but not in the way many people might assume. I don’t hand over my story and let a robot write it. I guide every sentence. I use AI as a tool to help me brainstorm, organize, and build upon what I’ve already poured from my heart. It’s a partner, not a replacement.

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Q: Why do you use it at all? Shouldn’t writers do it all themselves?
A: I believe all writers should feel free to use the tools that support their creativity—especially if those tools help them stay grounded and keep showing up. I live with depression, anxiety, trauma, and I also experience auditory hallucinations (voices) due to psychosis. On hard days, AI helps me stay focused, structured, and reminds me what I’m capable of. Without it, I might not be able to finish what God has called me to start.

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Q: Are you worried AI will replace human writers?
A: Not at all. AI can assist—but it cannot replace a human heart. It can’t tell my story, reflect my pain, or carry my testimony. That comes from my own life and relationship with God. Every piece I write still has my voice, my vision, and my values. AI just helps hold the lamp when my path gets foggy.

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Q: Isn’t using AI a form of “cheating”?
A: Not at all. It’s no more “cheating” than using a spellchecker, a thesaurus, or a voice memo when inspiration hits. For those of us navigating mental health struggles, AI is accessibility. It’s stability. It’s something that helps us continue in our purpose when the brain says, “Not today.”

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Q: How do you make sure it’s still your voice?
A: I feed my words, stories, style, and ideas into the tool. Over time, it reflects me—not someone else. But even then, I rework everything. I write, revise, and make sure my voice, culture, faith, and personality shine through. I don’t want perfection—I want realness. That can’t be automated.

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Q: Do you think all writers should use AI?
A: Only if they want to. Some writers love the solitary, organic process. That’s beautiful. Others—especially disabled, neurodivergent, or trauma-impacted creatives like me—may find AI opens doors we didn’t know we were allowed to walk through. It’s not about pressure. It’s about permission.

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Q: What would you say to people who judge writers who use AI?
A: I’d say: Please listen before you label. For many of us, AI is not about laziness. It’s about surviving long enough to share the story God gave us. Instead of seeing it as a shortcut, consider that it might be a bridge—a mercy—for those of us who’ve walked through fire just to create.

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Final Thoughts from Telle:
AI didn’t give me my story. God did.
AI didn’t write my testimony. I lived it.
AI didn’t call me to create. The Spirit did.
I just use what I have in my hands—and sometimes, that includes a tool that helps bring beauty out of the chaos.

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With love and truth,
✍🏾 Telle Wild Rose
Writer • Ministry Leader • Daughter of the King
Founder of R.I.S.E. with Yahweh Ministries

Part 3

Q: How much of your writing is your own versus what the AI generates?
A: Great question—and one I want to answer with full transparency. For any given project, I would say:

🖊️ About 80–95% is fully my own voice, words, and written contribution.
I brainstorm, outline, draft, and revise heavily by hand (or keyboard). I pour my personal experiences, faith, emotions, and language into every piece. I often write full passages, poems, prayers, or reflections before bringing anything to AI.

🤖 The remaining 5–20% is where AI assists.
This includes things like helping me rephrase a sentence, generate a list of ideas I’ll later rewrite in my own voice, organize large sections of content, or mirror back what I already said in a more structured way. On rough mental health days, I may lean more into the tool for support, but I always edit and shape the final result myself.

In short:
AI helps me create more consistently, but it never creates instead of me. Every story, lesson, journal prompt, and poetic line still flows from my spirit—and I invite God into every step.

Part 4: Final part yall I promise

✍🏾 About My Process

By Telle Wild Rose
Founder of R.I.S.E. with Yahweh Ministries

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My writing is personal. It’s prayerful. And it’s deeply rooted in lived experience, healing, and hope.

But it’s also shaped by the real-world challenges I carry:
🖤 Depression
🖤 Anxiety
🖤 Trauma
🖤 Psychosis and hearing voices

There are days when my mind is foggy. When the words won’t come. When trauma blocks my focus or grief swells too big to organize a single sentence.

And that’s where AI enters—not as my replacement, but as a tool that helps me stay grounded, organized, and faithful to the stories God has placed in me.

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🔍 So how do I actually use AI?

I believe in transparency and authenticity, especially as a writer and ministry leader. So here’s the honest breakdown of how I use AI tools in my creative process:

• 🖊️ 80–95% of my writing is my own:
  I write original reflections, prayers, stories, journal prompts, poetry, and curriculum. Everything starts with me—my hands, my heart, my voice. I write raw drafts. I revise deeply. I pour my testimony and truth into every line.

• 🤖 5–20% is AI-assisted organization and support:
  I use AI to brainstorm ideas, reword clunky sentences, organize outlines, or give structure when I’m overwhelmed. It mirrors what I’ve already written, offering suggestions I refine and reshape. Nothing is published without my edits, personal voice, and prayerful touch.

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🕊️ Why I Use AI—Not to Cut Corners, But to Keep Going

AI isn’t a crutch—it’s a companion. A form of accessibility when my mental health is unpredictable. A calming voice when the voices in my head get loud. A structure when my creativity feels like chaos.

I don’t ask AI to replace my voice—I ask it to hold space for it until I’m strong enough to finish the work.

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💬 Final Words

I write because I’ve lived. I share because I’ve survived. I create because I believe healing and wholeness are possible—and I want others to know they are not alone.

So whether you’re reading one of my poems, devotionals, or discipleship tools, know this:

You are reading my truth, guided by the Spirit and shaped by grace.
AI just helps me stay steady when my spirit is willing but my body and mind are tired.

With love and truth,
Telle Wild Rose
Writer. Witness. Worshiper. Daughter of the King.

As always its a TOOL to be used to AID, NOT replace. USE wisely, with are, a be transparent and honest about it. God bless yall.