I keep reaching for you when I know I shouldn't: a poem

 

• I keep reaching for you when I know I shouldn't

• I try to release you but each time I try, I couldn't

• So I'm asking you now, for YOU to release ME
  Please just leave me be, it's for the best can't you see?
  
  Love hurts, the ache, is it almost over?
  Of being chosen over, and over,
  You're no good for me and I'm too good for you,
  Watch me as I walk away, I never asked you to choose.
  
  I knew who you'd go for and it wasn't me ever,
  I guess we don't always get our happily ever after
  Fairytales and dreams for childrens past,
  For hearts that won't shatter like glass.
  
  I'm am now grown,
  And finally strong enough to come into my own.
  And it starts with this,
  A strong goodebye and I won't seal it with a kiss.
  
  About poem: allegorical piece about letting go of anything that harms us, even when it's hard to do so. Be it a relationship, family harmful dynamics and systems, or a habit or bad coping skill and so many other things.
  
  I pray this blesses the reader, you're strong than you think, if you're still here after all you've been though, IM proud of you. Amen. God bless you guys.
  
  1 Corinthians 13:11
  King James Version
  11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
  
  Philippians 3:13-14
  King James Version
  13 Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
  
  14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.

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Every Scar has a story

 

“The Scars That Preach"

Every scar tells a story…
Mine whisper of battles I never should’ve survived —
childhood pain, the fog of mental illness, the dark pull of self-harm.

For 20 years, I didn’t believe in God at all.
I was an atheist — angry, logical, numb.
If you’d told me I’d one day talk about Jesus with joy,
I would’ve laughed in your face.

But God wasn’t laughing.
He was waiting.
Watching over a girl who thought she was too broken to fix,
too scarred to save.

Then at 25, He met me in my wreckage —
not with lightning, but with love.
He breathed life into my dry bones
and called me daughter.

Now these scars aren’t shame.
They’re scripture on skin —
proof that resurrection is personal,
that Jesus still reaches into graves and pulls people out.

If you’re reading this and still in the fight —
please don’t give up.
Your story isn’t over.
God is still writing. ✍️

🕊️ Ezekiel 37:1–14 | Isaiah 61:3
#Testimony #Survivor #Faith #MentalHealthAwareness #JesusHeals

theyre not pretty but what they represent IS, they're mine. walking, living testimony. ❤ God saved me from my worst enemy...me and has redeemed my story.

as to the scars on my skin, healed and recovered from sh addiction.

if you or anyone you know struggles, please seek help!

Disclaimer / Content Note
I am fully healed and in recovery. These are old scars — not new injuries. This post is not meant to glorify self-harm in any way, but to normalize healing and living in your own skin without shame.

If you or someone you love is struggling with self-harm or suicidal thoughts, you’re not alone. Please reach out for help:

U.S. & Canada: Call or text 988 to reach the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (24/7, free, confidential).

U.K. & Ireland: Samaritans at 116 123 (free).

Canada (Youth): Kids Help Phone 1-800-668-6868.

International: https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/
(global hotlines).

Healing is possible. You matter. ❤️

17h

Sacred Love Code TM

 

The Sacred Love Code™ – Writing with Holy Intimacy

In a world where love stories are often cheapened, oversexualized, or stripped of deeper meaning, I felt a calling to write romance differently. That calling gave birth to The Sacred Love Code™, a set of boundaries and principles I follow in all of my storytelling, poetry, and creative works that explore love, intimacy, and desire.

The Sacred Love Code™ is more than just a guideline—it’s a heart posture toward love. Inspired by the biblical Song of Songs and God’s design for covenant intimacy, it frames romance and affection in a way that is poetic, reverent, and purposeful.

Why I Created It

I wanted a standard I could write by—one that allowed me to explore the beauty of intimacy without crossing into what feels cheap, graphic, or exploitative. At the same time, I didn’t want to erase passion, longing, or the beauty of human connection. The Sacred Love Code™ allows me to write stories that honor God, celebrate love, and still capture the full depth of romance and desire—just as God intended.

What It Means in My Writing

When you see Sacred Love Code™ Certified on my work, it means:

1. Sex is treated as sacred, not shameful – never crude or graphic, but honored as part of God’s design.

2. Affection is intentional and worshipful – tenderness and closeness are written with reverence, never cheapened.

3. Bodies are beloved, not idolized – beauty is celebrated without objectification.

4. Desire is holy, not carnal – longing is expressed with emotional and spiritual meaning, not lust.

5. Love reflects God’s heart – every act of affection points back to faithfulness, devotion, and redemption.

6. Romance unfolds with purpose – attraction grows through trust, spiritual unity, and maturity.

These six principles form the Sacred Love Code™—a promise that my words will never exploit love, but will always reflect its deepest purpose.

For Other Writers Who Want to Use the Sacred Love Code™

The Sacred Love Code™ is not just for me—it’s a framework any writer can adopt. If you long to create love stories that are passionate yet pure, tender yet powerful, then this code can serve as your compass.

Using the Sacred Love Code™ means committing to storytelling that is:

• God-honoring

• Emotionally rich

• Purpose-driven

• Never shallow or exploitative

By carrying the Sacred Love Code™ Certified mark, you’re letting your readers know that your work handles romance with the dignity, beauty, and holiness it deserves.

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✨ Whether you’re a writer or a reader, my hope is that the Sacred Love Code™ reminds us that love was never meant to be cheap—love was meant to be sacred.

catching breath: a poem

Catching breath by telle wild rose ©️ 2025
Theme song: hand me down by citizen soldier

Why does no one notice she,
I don't understand...everywhere I look there is he.
I try to run but I cannot escape, you see,
Hunted and haunted by his sins hes done to me.

He smiles while I scream and cry in sorrow
Always one step behind in his shadow
But I know the way out, I take the blade
And for once I drop the facade

He gets him the glory and the family,
While I'm all alone, unloved, nobody wants me
I'm called liar, deceiver, or worse yet
I'm believed but should just forgive and forget

The ones that remain by my side,
Can't even see past the mask I use to hide.
Or perhaps they do see and care not for my tears not to soothe my fears,
They're Too tired of my pain I've been carrying for years

They don't have the memories of the rapings, but I do,
Who else can carry this weight the way I do?
But don't celebrate yet, I'm not a winner at living
I'm a failure at death, scorned lover of dying.

Why don't I just get better they wonder,
Why can't I move on, it was years ago, they ponder.
But even shadows follow the body full of ghosts,
Like black water seeking to drown her in its coasts.

Choke the dream, destroy hope,
But no matter, I know of the best way to cope.
A different kind of drug enters my system
An old friend and she, dancing to a familiar rhythm

Rivers of the red flow,
This next act isn't for show
She takes last breath
As she finally is welcomed by death.

Psalm 147:3 ESV / 443 helpful votes Helpful Not Helpful
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds

Proverbs 3:5-6 ESV / 675 helpful votes Helpful Not Helpful
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

Psalm 34:17-20 ESV / 1,233 helpful votes Helpful Not Helpful
When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken.

Jeremiah 29:11 ESV / 823 helpful votes
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Encouragement: there is always hope. Always a reason to keep going. God will give each of us beauty for ashes. 

slave to the Shadows in me

Slave to the Shadows of me

By telle wild rose ©️ 2025

Song: citizen soldier devil inside

I just can't shake it 

Stakes are high and she beckons

Calls me home again 

Down here where the darkness reigns 

Rules over me forever 

John 1:5 ESV / 668 helpful votes 

The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.

Acts 26:18 ESV / 465 helpful votes Helpful Not Helpful

To open their eyes, so that they may turn from darkness to light and from the power of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me.’

John 8:12 ESV / 443 helpful votes 

Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”

Encouragement: you are not the darkness of your memories or the darkness the devil brings. You are a child of light. Take care.

the shield and the sword: a poem

The shield and the sword 

By telle wild rose ©️ 

2025

Theme song: memories by within temptation 

Most of my memories fade to black

I can't recall any of them anymore, see

But there's one that remains through the crack

A lover, a friend, a foe and enemy

For she is all of these things and more to me

She holds the key to my heart

With the power to uplift or destroy,

And this is just the start

I'm just a game, a damaged toy

How I tremble at the memory of you

Your love cuts deep bleeding the red 

Caught between freedom and the chains of you

And I confess I can't get you out of my head. 

I don't know what to do

Give in and be in sin,

Or resist and lead on to the healing too

The blade wants to cut the skin

"She" isn't a person though she makes play as one,

The art imitating life but she doesn't breath

She ice old steel and hard as stone, that one

She longs to get to what lies beneath 

But she doesn't know there's been a shift

A change in the atoms that make me up

I've been born from Above if you catch my drift 

I no longer blend drinking holiness and darkness's cup. 

I fight my battles with a different knife

The sword of the Spirit the word of God

She can and will come knocking at the door of strife,

But my will to survive will answer with all I've got. 

Ephesians 6:16-17

King James Version

16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.

17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:

Encouragent: don't give in. Even when temptation comes knocking. Even when the nenories of yesterday creep up. Even when darkness presses in on every side. You're much stronger than you think. Better equipped too. Keep fighting. Heaven fights with you.

The single Chronicles Poems by Telle WIld Rose

The Single Chronicles Poems is for anyone who has ever felt the weight of loneliness and wondered if God still writes beautiful stories with broken pieces.

Telle wild rose

September 1, 2025 

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