woman and well by telle wild rose

Do you hear ne God?

(I hide in my shame)

Are you still there?

(Do you even wish to be?)

Can't you hear my anguished cries?

(Or do you turn your face away?)

My soul is weary lord, my heart heavy..

(Give me rest)

You once said you seek your face 

(Where shall I go?)

And so, unsteady, unsure and yet wondering still.

(Your face will i seek out)

Ive sinned a thousand times and yet...

(And oh how great the sum of them!)

You don't turn away, you came to the well.

(A place i thought was dried up) 

You meet me in all my mess and say..

(But even broken cisterns hold some water)

Come. Drink. Take freely without measure. 

(I thought I blew it this time) 

Your thoughts towards me comfort me. 

(Be still my fickle heart)

All of host of heaven rejoice when I look to you

(How precious am I in your sight?) 

Ive been her, the adulterous woman, that it. 

(So many lovers, idols, false gods)

And yes you call me out, but not to hurt, to heal

(Your words act as a balm)

This here now is my testimony 

(Of the goodness of God)

Amen. 

(Forever and ever)

God's not done with you hope in the breaking, beauty in the healing

Theme sing: tauren wells, God's not done with you"

I crave the blade from " I wrote the wound, it was the balm" 

Heaven help me,

 for I crave the blade

Madam Merkur

 my lovely lady friend

blade to skin

 to touch

 to cut

 to bleed

red rivers of tears

 falling

 slowly, flowing downwards

Heaven help me,

 I crave the blade.

the pain, the anguish

 cannot be contained

and oh how I fear

 I fear great a many things

 but this desire of mine

oh Heaven help me

 send the angels down to stop me

 for I crave the blade.

📖 Scripture Reflections:

Isaiah 1:18 (NIV)

 “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow…”

Hebrews 4:15–16 (ESV)

 “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize… Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace…”

Psalm 18:16 (NIV)

 “He reached down from on high and took hold of me; He drew me out of deep waters.”

2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV)

 “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”

Encouragement: if you are struggling with mental illness, know this, you are not alone. Heaven knows your name, God sees your pain, and He meets you there.

Big mama see, just be: stand alone poem by Telle Wild Rose

 Date published: 7/24/2025 

Author: Telle Wild Rose 

Title: Big mama see, just be 

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Big mama see, just be, a poem by telle wild rose 

Homemade lemonade, tea spillin’

Kitchen cookin’, secrets hide 

Rugs with shadows,bones hidden

Take a walk with me and come along for the ride.

Step inside to the fairytale, 

Of monsters in the form of ailing minds, 

Mental illness they call it, brain short circuit fail 

Family reunions, thinly veiled insults kinds. 

Word through the grapevines is this,

Big mama see, do nothin’ ,she; just be. 

Inviting abusers to the table, what is this?

Everyone falls in line, monkey do what monkey see. 

Big mama isnt a person but a system,

Of dysfunction, and no accountability.

If anyone breaks out, they have no longer part with them

The black sheep, the scape goat, no one wants to be he. 

Mind shatters under pressure,

Fragmented, and broken silence, what sthe aim?

Trust faded, heart jaded and no more joyful pleasure of family get together,

Outcast, depression, anxiety, and trauma responses are all that remain. 

Big mama see,

Be quiet.

Be compliant, just be

Be moldable, and always with brokenness, hide it. 

To the system of Big mama, blackness before safety,

I say only this, 

Youre course has run the race, the end is near quickly,

And freedom exposes all in song, in dance, in words, just like this.

Grit and grace series introduces first work: I wrote the wound, it was the balm, poem collection, real, raw, gritty and redemptive, AVAILIBLE NOW

 Title: I wrote the wound, it was the balm 

Author: Telle WIld Rose 

Release date: July 19, 2025 

All rights reserved. please do use for personal, group or ministry uses, but do NOT change or alter anything about the book. 

Format: PDF

Price: FREE

AVAILABLE NOW!!! Download

Photo information: person picture of telle wild rose's arm of old healed scars. removed background in background remover program, added text via canva

⚠ Caution!!! ⚠

📘 How to Use This Book

I Wrote the Wound, It was the Balm isn’t meant to be read all at once.

It’s a conversation. A mirror. A safe place.
And like healing, it moves at your own pace.

Here are a few gentle ways to walk through these pages:

• Start with the poem that speaks to your current state.
  There’s no need to go in order. Let your soul guide you.
  
  

• Read mindfully—see not just the wound but the hidden underlineing the balm.
  Pause in between. Breathe. Let the Scriptures response sink in slowly.
  
  

• Use the journal prompts throughout or at the end to start your own conversations with God.
  
  

• Don’t rush your healing.
  This book is here for the days when you don’t have words, the nights when you’re unraveling, and the mornings when the sun rises again… even just for a moment.
  
  

You can come back to it as many times as you need.
Each time, you’ll find something different waiting for you.
And each time, God will still be speaking.

⚠️ Author's Note & Content Warning

Dear Reader,

This collection is raw. It is real. It is mine.

Inside these pages, you will find vulnerable expressions of mental illness, trauma, self-harm, suicidal ideation, spiritual grief, and emotional pain. Some poems may be unsettling or heavy—because they were written in the dark before I found my way back to the light.

This book is not a glorification of suffering.
It is not a romanticizing of pain.
It is a record—a testimony—of survival,
and of the whispers of God calling me home.

If you are sensitive to topics around self-harm, depression, or emotional abuse, please proceed with care.
Take breaks.
Skip sections.
Come back when you’re ready.
You don’t owe the book more than you have to give.

If you are currently struggling, please know: you are not alone.
You are deeply loved, and there is always help, even when it feels unreachable.

I share these pages not as a perfect person,
but as a witness to grace in the middle of a storm.

Let this book be what it needs to be for you.
And let the final note always be this:

You’re still here.
And that is holy.

With tenderness,
Telle Wild Rose

When healing isnt the promise, JESUS is, anything else is bonus

 was on mental illness threads and seen this comments like these: "its only for a season." "it will diminish in time" "for the believer sickness/illness isn't forever" <<< WHO told you that????? nowhere is that in the bible.

and typically these folks do NOT mean "when you get your glorified body or ressurection (whichever comes first) then your illnesses will be gone" <<<< what they DO mean is >>> "your illnesses will be gone after xyz years." or "if you had enough faith'' or ''pray more'' or ''you must have secret sin" or "well what are you doing to invite this in?" or "it may be demons". or some other either blamey comment, or lack of comprehending that YES you can be Christian and suffer chronic illness/sickness and no God doesn't always take it away. like pauls thorn in his side He begged God to take away 3 times and what did God actually say?

"My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness" God shines through and can use anyone to show His power. paul had this thorn in his side, wasn't taken away but yet look how God STILL used him.

a note: this makes me think of that saying "God will never give you more than you can handle" um....that's not in the bible either.

i believe He DOES, so that we turn to HIM and rely on HIM more. when we are weak, then HE is strong. when we feel like giving up, who do we turn to? we pray. to our Father, we cry out. and trust He shows up. He never promised to remove obstacles but to be there with us in it and THROUGH it.

the children of Israel didn't skip or bypass the wilderness, they wandered THROUGH to get to the promised land.

a note: "1 corinthians 10:13" that folks love to misquote is about TEMPTATION context matters. <<<<< temptation is NOT given by God, He cannot be tempted NOR does HE tempt anyone. James 1:13

I been living with chronic mental illness for many years now. and still have it even after 7 years being the Lords. do I still pray for healing? always, but not in complaint or grumbling or demanding but just that I don't know His plans. He may heal me this side of heaven in this body or He may wait till later. that's His business. at same time I don't wait for me to be healed to be used by God. His grace truly IS sufficient. He can STILL and IS using me in all my brokenness and illness to help someone else out there.

hope isn't about receiving something, its about JEsus. HE is our hope.

i know what His word DOES promise, is to deliver us from sin, save our souls, and that our names are written in heaven. that at the end He will wipe every tear from our eyes. that at the end there will be no more sickness or death. just eternal life with Him forever.

i don't praise Him because I want something from Him, I praise Him because HE is WORTHY to be priased and He already given me soo much in saving my soul, anything else I receive is a added bonus to whats already amazing and good.

Becoming she (now available) published

 

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 Title: Becoming She by Telle Wild Rose — Now Available

Posted on: July 16, 2025
Author: Telle Wild Rose

Published on: July 16, 2025
Location: Wichita, Kansas, USA
Edition: First
Format: Digital (PDF)
Distribution: Free access via Google Drive
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The Husband Files by Telle WIld Rose - Now available

 Title: The Husband Files by Telle Wild Rose — Now Available

Posted on: July 16, 2025
Author: Telle Wild Rose

Published on: July 16, 2025
Location: Wichita, Kansas, USA
Edition: First
Format: Digital (PDF)
Distribution: Free access via Google Drive
Read it here: Download

This work is now officially published for public enjoyment and distribution via this link. All rights reserved. Please do not alter or redistribute without permission.

                                                    Photo information: cottonbrostudio public domain photo. edited in canva to add book title and author name.