Don't let me, let go by Telle Wild Rose

 

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Don't let me, let go a Poem by Telle Wild Rose 2025 ©

Theme song: thebandred "shadows" 

these thoughts consume me,

threaten to overtake me.

they force my hand,

ill try to hold on if i can.

cut everyone off, no one loves you,

honeyed lies they whisper, sound so sweet too.

just let go, release, 

no one will care, be free.

isolate, dungeon,

down here no friends, just demons, a legion.

i cant save me,

i cant save them either you see.

too weak to fight

something is not right,

darkenss take ahold,

i must do all of what im told 

i smile and pretend, 

no one suspects this is my end.

this is where i die, and the evil takes over,

quickly now, run for cover.

shadows choke the scream,

pain killed a dying dream.

blind and deaf,

a small taste of the shadow of death.

help me, im drowing,

please, the torment is too much, im dying.

bleed the red, go on,

break the skin, we've already won.

hate, a kind of passion,

we see you still havent learned your lesson.

wait, stop, dont go,

were just getting started with the show.

falling, fading fast,

is it over? how long will this last?

calling all saints for help, a sister to keep,

the dragon has arrived, he keeps me in his heap. 

a useless treasure,

no value to measure.

how did i ever dare for dreams?

a better life? everything and yet nothing, is as it seems.

Scripture: Psalm 23:4 ESV / 43 helpful votes Helpful Not Helpful

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

Encouragement: if you're feeling alone, unloved, rejected or the enemy is lying to you about it all, just Know God has loved you with an everlasting love, that no evil can overtake you, HE is always near.

The war Bible Field Manual TM

 

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The letters by telle wild rose poem reflections

There have been quite a few times that ive cheated death. all of course by which were by my own hand. or well, would have been, had i gone through with any plans on mine.

i have battled depression and dark thoughts most of my life from childhood, teen years and adulthood. id be lying if i said my thoughts dont still go dark some of the time. but im in a much better position now. before, i lacked the only thing that matters...Jesus Christ. 

No, He has not miraculously healed me, not through lack of faith, for i have like paul, asked him many times, and the answer i consistantly get, is that His grace is sufficient for me. i know for some He will heal and take away mental illness, but there are those of us, perhaps theres a certain beauty in the breakdown if you will. it draws us closer to Him, nearer to the one who catches every tear in His bottle. and makes for an even greater testimony of unwavering faith in extraordinary circumstances. theres a purpose to all this pain, all this suffering, and He is using it for His glory, and to save souls. 

not every story is going to be neat and packaged up with a bow tie, there's grit, and grace, and realness and humaness too. there tears and running noses, hands clenched so tight to the frayed worn fabrics of our bedsheets we wrap ourselves in, just wanting something to hold onto. 

so, yes i have struggled. the first time was when i was 14 years old. i did not yet know the Lord, but i knew enough about Him from others who had relationship with Him, to be angry at Him. why didnt he stop it? why did He allow the abuse to happen? and so i planned on ending things and being done with it all. but cowardice? perhaps a strong will to still live? stopped me in my tracks. 

another time i was 18-19. and this is when i wrote ''the letters''. no...not love letters...goodbye letters. my final words i would ever speak to my loved ones. i kept them secreted away like something in me knew they were wrong and 'other' and not normal. like something knew i was going against my own survival instincts. 

years later after i knew the Lord at age 25, He had me to take those letters...and rip them up and throw them away. His Spirit saying to mine "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.-Jeremiah 29:11

and of course this: Isaiah 30:21“And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.”

and so here i am, encouraging you all, please dont give up or give in. thats what the enemy wants. instead, cast ALL your anxieties upon Him, for He cares for you. 

for i can promise you this: Psalm 37:25-26

25 I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread. 26 He is ever [1] merciful, and lendeth; and his seed is blessed. 

ive never seen one of His, those that are truly His, forgotten, discarded or lacking in any thing.He always provides for His own. 

Below you will see my instagram/threads post of a poem called ''the letters'', here is the scriptures paired with it:  

" if you're looking for a sign to keep going, this is it. stay strong and if your strength should fail you, PRESS in to God and let HIM be your strength. don't give up!

Psalm 31:24 ESV / 3,950 helpful votes
Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord!

1 Corinthians 16:13 ESV / 3,830 helpful votes Helpful Not Helpful
Be watchful, stand firm in the faith, act like men, be strong.

Psalm 27:14 ESV / 3,603 helpful votes
Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!

Philippians 4:13 ESV / 19 helpful votes
I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

Exodus 15:2 ESV / 13 helpful votes Helpful Not Helpful
The Lord is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation; this is my God, and I will praise him, my father's God, and I will exalt him."

and so dear ones, this is not the end of the story, but merely the start of new and wonderful beginnings. stay strong, prayed up and stay in the Word! amen -telle wild rose

Christian ttrpg and roleplaying games and christian guide by Telle Wild Rose

 created learning/teaching/storytelling games for Christians.

-the fools journey takes you through an allegorical journey of a journey similar to pilgrims progress by john bunyan. its about the natural birth of man and the spiritual second born again experience. keeps the 2 jokers in the game, the first fool is the natural man, the second fool is the born again new nature. uses 1 card deck.

- in his image is a storytelling game also, used to help craft 'parables' or lessons to teach. it uses dice and 2 card decks.

- dnd or similar game added frameworks to make the games more Chritsain.

- game play rules for Christians guide: how to play anygame especially ttrpg or roleplaying games as a Christian is included here also in the "in His image file". can be used to apply to ttrpgs as well

*suggestions for improvement ideas IS WELCOME

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1cIPW6sONeZtBkh8bYiV8RyLauIzPNN1k?usp=drive_link

least studies books of the bible: to do

Least-Studied Books of the Bible

1. Obadiah –

One chapter, shortest book in the Old Testament. Most Christians couldn’t summarize it if you bribed them with coffee and donuts.

(Theme: Edom’s pride and God’s justice.)

2. Philemon –

Tucked in Paul’s letters, only 25 verses. A personal note about forgiveness and reconciliation. Many skip right over it.

(Theme: Gospel transforms relationships.)

3. 2 & 3 John –

Tiny letters. People often flip past them thinking they’re “footnotes” rather than full Spirit-inspired writings.

(Theme: truth, love, and hospitality in the church.)

4. Jude –

Short, a little spicy, with weird references (angels in chains, Michael vs. Satan). Rarely studied, but packed with warnings and doxology.

(Theme: contending for the faith.)

5. Nahum –

Known as the “doom of Nineveh.” People know Jonah, but Nahum? Almost never preached.

(Theme: God’s judgment on oppressors.)

6. Haggai –

Only two chapters. A call to rebuild God’s house, but often overlooked.

(Theme: put God’s priorities first.)

7. Zephaniah –

Heavy judgment with a glimmer of hope, but it’s usually overshadowed by bigger prophets like Isaiah and Jeremiah.

(Theme: Day of the Lord + restoration.)

8. Leviticus –

People start their “read the Bible in a year plan,” hit Leviticus, and—boom—they’re out. Yet it’s deeply important for understanding holiness and sacrifice.

(Theme: God’s holiness & atonement.)

9. Ecclesiastes –

Not completely ignored, but many churches shy away from its raw “everything is meaningless” vibe.

(Theme: life’s emptiness without God.)

10. Song of Solomon –

Either skipped because “uhh, awkward!” or over-spiritualized. But it’s rich with imagery of love and covenant.

(Theme: love, intimacy, covenant reflection.)

Patterns

Tiny books (1 chapter or 2 pages long) = ignored.

Heavy prophetic books (Nahum, Zephaniah, Haggai) = skipped for the “big name prophets.”

Awkward books (Leviticus, Song of Solomon, Ecclesiastes) = often avoided because they feel strange or confusing.

the demon is near, what goes bump in the night (look in the mirror) by telle wild rose

 *images by chatgpt

scene 1:

i woke up in a fright, 

from a dream of what goes bump in the night 

and truly what a horrendous sight, 

the grotesque creature lurking just out of sight.

Scene 2: 

was it real or was I merely dreaming, 

I try to keep my cool but inside I'm screaming.

the horrors untold,

my soul was its to hold. 

scene 3: 

I turn on the lights in my bathroom mirror,

I peer inside in anticipation, when suddenly in abject horror, 

I see a monster looking back at me,

she's wearing a blue dress, so much blue is all I see.  

scene 4: 

was I summoned or did she summon me? 

what is this strange creature of light staring back at me? 

she looks at me as if I'm the beast, the night creature,

I stretch out my hand towards her.

scene 5: 

I'm not sure what will happen when light meets darkness,

but I must know, must take the chance with this. 

wake up! this thing is sinister,

wake up! your enemy is near, just look in the mirror!

The Demon is near, look in the mirror, by Telle Wild Rose. 

If you ever felt like your own worst enemy, you are in good company, sometimes a trick of the mind is just that, a lie, don't listen to it. 

great a many men have faced this same struggle, of the enemy of self, the struggle, the wrestling, the self hatred and even fear of what we may mess up next, The bible says this: 

Romans 7:14-25

King James Version

14 For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal, sold under sin.

15 For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I.

16 If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good.

17 Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me.

18 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not.

19 For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do.

20 Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me.

21 I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me.

22 For I delight in the law of God after the inward man:

23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.

24 O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?

25 I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.

our hope is not found in ourselves, but in Jesus Christ our Savior, look up, our redeemer draws nigh!

All the flowers are dead

All the Flowers are dead by Telle Wild Rose (shauntell rohner)

A small bud tries to blossom into something new

But a man stomps down and crushes the dream

Lower than the dirt underneath his boot, She is you

She lets out a fearful scream

Why does it have to be this way?

The season is warming up welcoming dying hope before it even starts,

When will she finally be ok?

When she passed she left a trail of broken hearts

Water, earth, and light, are needed to flourish

Deprived of all, now theres rot underneath the root,

The sun has fallen, the stars weep, and she wishes there was more than this

Looking around the bed of soil, she realizes sadly something is afoot,

A facade to fool the masses, surely

looking with a careful eye, theres beauty on the outside, yellows, blues and red

But the temperate of the air is somber and winter has come far too early,

Because as she looks deeper she discovers, all the flowers are dead.

Reflection: what areas of your life are dead or rotten? what in your life needs to be revived?

scripture meditation: Ezekiel 37:1-14

King James Version

37 The hand of the Lord was upon me, and carried me out in the spirit of the Lord, and set me down in the midst of the valley which was full of bones,

2 And caused me to pass by them round about: and, behold, there were very many in the open valley; and, lo, they were very dry.

3 And he said unto me, Son of man, can these bones live? And I answered, O Lord God, thou knowest.

4 Again he said unto me, Prophesy upon these bones, and say unto them, O ye dry bones, hear the word of the Lord.

5 Thus saith the Lord God unto these bones; Behold, I will cause breath to enter into you, and ye shall live:

6 And I will lay sinews upon you, and will bring up flesh upon you, and cover you with skin, and put breath in you, and ye shall live; and ye shall know that I am the Lord.

7 So I prophesied as I was commanded: and as I prophesied, there was a noise, and behold a shaking, and the bones came together, bone to his bone.

8 And when I beheld, lo, the sinews and the flesh came up upon them, and the skin covered them above: but there was no breath in them.

9 Then said he unto me, Prophesy unto the wind, prophesy, son of man, and say to the wind, Thus saith the Lord God; Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe upon these slain, that they may live.

10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and the breath came into them, and they lived, and stood up upon their feet, an exceeding great army.

11 Then he said unto me, Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel: behold, they say, Our bones are dried, and our hope is lost: we are cut off for our parts.

12 Therefore prophesy and say unto them, Thus saith the Lord God; Behold, O my people, I will open your graves, and cause you to come up out of your graves, and bring you into the land of Israel.

13 And ye shall know that I am the Lord, when I have opened your graves, O my people, and brought you up out of your graves,

14 And shall put my spirit in you, and ye shall live, and I shall place you in your own land: then shall ye know that I the Lord have spoken it, and performed it, saith the Lord.

Encouragement: the Lord will give you beauty for ashes, for He is the God of the living, not the dead. He came to give you life more abundantly whereas the thief came only to steal, kill and destroy. but we are more than conquerers in Him. - Telle Wild Rose